Chris Lewis is annoyed with himself.

He was a talented, capable all rounder who played 32 Test matches for England and in a World Cup final in 1992. He won trophies during a domestic career that took him to Leicestershire, Nottinghamshire and Surrey before his professional days ended in 2008.

But it wasn’t a smooth gilded career. Born in Guyana, viewed as an outsider, a difficult character, too flamboyant, too arrogant, too lazy, too talented, Lewis was constantly bucking against authority and tradition.

‘The prat without a hat’ was how he was described when he caught sunstroke after shaving his head in the Caribbean.

He didn’t like the perception of him, but incidents like turning up late to the ground for both England and then Leicestershire hardly helped.

Chris Lewis of England in 1994 (
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Lewis playing for the England Masters XI against Australia (
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And then came the big fall.

The arrest for attempting to smuggle cocaine into the UK from St. Lucia which landed him a 13-year jail term for which he served six and a half years until his release in 2015.

But there is something nagging away. The fact that he ended up fulfilling the low expectations people had of him still hurts, and will probably never leave him.

Lewis discusses tactics with Mark Butcher in 2008 (
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“There is a perception to start with and people pick out moments to fit in with that perception so that they can say ‘I told you so.’ said Lewis.

“The hardest thing to deal with is that for most of my life I sat there and listened to people making judgements and talking about this and that and I used to think what on earth are these people talking about?

“Then you go and walk head first into the perception that people always had. Nightmare. Unbelievable nightmare.

“It was so poor. I was in a desperate state. When you’re in a desperate place then poor choices are made and I have to live with this label now that no-one wants.”

Lewis was a supremely athletic cricketer who had real ability with both bat and ball. And one wonders how life might have turned out were he 29 rather than 49 today.

There are tough times ahead. He’d like a future in the game, but ‘only if the game wants me’. He is helping educate players with the PCA and hopes to turn his story into a positive one.

Lewis, out for a duck against Pakistan, at the Cricket World Cup in 1992 (
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He has remorse and regret for the ‘crazy’ decision he made, but thankfully there is little bitterness about his cricket career which most players would bite your hand off to have.

“I was having the time of my life in the 90s,” he admitted. “I was one of the fortunate ones. We might not have had central contracts and things like that, but we had more in place than most.

“I had my time and where I have ended up now is down to the choices I made and not the situation.

“I could have done so much better, but only with hindsight. It was still a great time and a great opportunity. It was wonderful.”

*‘Crazy’ by Chris Lewis is published by The History Press and is available now

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